Bismillahirrahmanirrahim .
I just want to write a little before proceed to study .
just for a while okay . hee .
Hmm , I don't know why , but it's becoming harder to push myself to study hard .
It feels like I lose my spirit somewhere .
Or maybe it's another test to prove how grateful I am of getting what I wanted .
I need to get myself together and realise what trouble I put myself into .
But it's still damn hard . It's so frustrating , okay .
Maybe , my intention weren't pure enough .
Shit , I changed to bad like wadehell .
If I keep being like this though the examination is only month and days away ,
I will definitely won't achieve what I've been dreaming of and lose every part of it .
It scared the hell out of me , but laziness win over me .
urghh , I don't know what to do .
But for sure , I really need to push myself like , more than anyone here .
Like , seriously okay .
I need to get straight A . You realise that ieqa ?
What on earth you want me to do to make you get real huh ?
You aren't clever like anybody here .
Hardwork is the only solution !
Keep on procrastinate and misery will found you so gladly .
Come on . Just push like more than ever .
Declare war towards laziness (and sleepiness too maybe) .
For the sake of Allah , Islam , parents and your future .
InsyaAllah , you can get through this just fine .
It's not about the result but the effort .
Okay , I've done what I have to do .
It's time to be serious now . goodbye peeps .
Please pray for me . :)
