ouh hye . I had this PMS .
since no one really care nor really read my blog ,
I will just rambling talk about everything just to feel better .
Ouh yeahh people , I hate pms so much .
It just turn my day off .
If PMS is a life , I would give a real punch just to show how much I hated it .
So when this thing kind of happening , I just can't stop myself of being upset over everything .
So here's the thing that makes me upset these lately and it kept coming .
1. me and Allah .
I don't know since when , I just kept feeling that
I'm becoming further away from Him and I'm scared .
He's the only one I had since the very beginning .
I'm scared I might lost Him after another sins and sins I made .
I want to be really in love with Him .
Wishing that my love towards You will grow even greater not disappear gradually . :')
2. study
Well you see . I just don't know how to study .
I don't have anyone here to push me , to ask me to study together , to teach me ,
ouh , how I miss Amy and Husna so much ,
Umi , ckgu Marlina , ckgu Hanis , ckgu Sakinah and the others too . huu ~
University is totally different from school . I just miss everything in Sepintar .
Being the stupidest person in class make me feel worse .
I don't want to be stupid . I want to be the top . Just like my brother did .
But it just getting harder since I didn't learn anything from the previous uni . :'(
3. badar
ouh , here come this part . today we had this thing
I don't know what we called here .
Seems like darunnisa' in Sepintar .
And after that , those Badar called me and said I was chosen to be one of them .
And I was like ,, Omaigod ! They really don't know me .
It's a huge responsibility but I can't say no
because it will mean that I choose not to accept Allah's guidance .
Maybe it's another chance that Allah gave me .
So whatever it is , I need to change to be better from now on .
4. love ? shit .
i don't know . I just fall in love with someone and I hated it so much .
I don't want to be in love with people . Learnt from lesson .
And when this thing happened again , it makes me feeling so frustrated .
I felt so gayy . Demmit .
I miss my sepintarian-friends so much .
Can't wait to hang out with them this coming holiday .
looking forward for it :')
Okay enough . it's already 3 o'clock . And tomorrow I have classes .
Need to stay fresh during it . goodbye .
