Nursyafiqah <3

O' My Love .

Saturday, August 11, 2012 // 2:06 AM - 0 comment(s)

From the previous post , you will know that I was upset .
But I tried my best to keep it to myself ,
For the very first time , I tried to stay positive ,
and not telling anyone directly of how I felt .
For the very first time , I relied only on Allah .
My heart still feel very disappointed ,
but my mind asking myself ,
"Who am I to feel that way?"
But he actually granted my wish .
And I'm so grateful and touched .

Rabiatul Adawiyah once said ,

"How come we as His servant hoping for His redha ,

in the mean time we're complaining and not redha

with all the test from Him ? Whatever happen was His will ,

should we as His servant complain with
Allah's Qadak and Qadar ?"

So yeah . It opened my eyes and heart somehow .

I don't deserve everything that Allah has given me .
Yet , I kept asking for more and more ,
while doing all the sins .

Who am I , right ? But still ,
Allah loves me more and more .

How do I know ?

I never saw His present ,

but I can feel Him deeply in my heart .

For every single time I thought of Him ,