Berat rasanya nak lalui semua dugaan yang mendatang . Kalau bukan sebab aku hamba Allah , kalau bukan sebab aku orang Islam , mungkin dah lama aku mati bunuh diri , mungkin dah lama aku hilang sabar . I tried to keep it to myself , but I just can't . Teruk sangat aku nangis for this few days . Non-stop kot . Sedih rasanya peluang yang dah ada depan mata kena lepas macam tu je . But the faith in Allah will never fade . I'm sure that Allah know what best for me .
O' my lord , please lend me some strength to get through all these , to find the spirit to go on with what my life would be destined for . Ya Allah , tolong jangan bagi aku putus asa dengan hidup aku . Though I don't have the right to question this , but it still appears in my mind . Why me , why I have to get through this kind of situation ? But I know , Allah tidak akan membebankan seseorang melebihi kadar kemampuannya . I know I'm more than this , yeah , I'm stronger than this . Sorry for complaining , sorry for being weak . :')
Tidak pernah terlintas untuk mengeluh . Tidak pernah terlintas untuk mempersoalkan apa yang terjadi . Cuma sedikit kecewa bila impian aku dipandang hina oleh orang-orang yang sepatutnya memberi sokongan dan meminjamkan sedikit kekuatan . Sakit hatinya tak terkata bila impian yang cuba aku kejar , orang pandang macam aku buat something stupid . But I have to realise the fact that they know nothing about this . They just want the best for me too . But still , I'm hurt , okay . It's okay , because later or sooner , I'm just gonna forget about this . At least ada gak benefit aku jd seorang pelupa . :')
I can't be more grateful to my Lord . I did feel alone at first . But I realised , every problems lead me closer to him . Make me love him more and more . Anddd , he didn't leave me alone actually . He showed me one way of his love by sending me someone . He gave me the bestest best friend that listened to everything , that advised me , and cheer me up . Thanks yusuf . Thanks for comfort me , thanks for the advices , thanks for everything , I guess . You're right . I need to be positive . Redha and Bersyukur . I'm trying yet it's sooooo damn hard . and lagu ni , dgr kan lagu 1st ni ? langkah tercipta - UNIC , sgt sgt laa membantu . banyak kali dah aku ulang pun . :')
So I will change the bad situation into a good one . And I believe I have the POWER to change . Time to stand up after another fall . Time to fight against the world . wahh , mcm apa je . haha . Takde guna sedih-sedih dah pun . Benda nak jadi . Biar jelaa kan . Who knows if it's much better than what I had planned . Aku serahkan segala-galanya kat Allah . Lets enjoy the 10 days before get into matriks . Huwaa , sebak balik . 10 hari je tinggal ? Huuu . Chillax . Jgn syahdu2 dulu . Tunggu waktu nak pergi nanti , bak kata orang tu . hewhew . :')
That's all . Kbye . Ouh yeah , I just can't ignore the fact that I have the bestest friend in the whole universe (cehh , mcm hiperbola sgt . HAHA) and he is Yusuf Ahmad . and I'm grateful to have him in my life . and saje je nak ulang balik . because I love redundant much . huahuahua .
