Assalamualaikum and hye people . :)
Pheww , it's been a while since my last update , isn't it ?
Well , I've been busy , okay not really .
It's just that I don't have thing to talk about and
not having any sort of connection to google either.
Pretty dull you know , me without internet ? hihi .
Anyway , my 1st semester was over ,
just for 3 MONTHS . no ! actually LESS than 3 months or 2 months ?
I can barely remember . No wonder it felt too fast .
and I was too tired you know , trying to catch up all the syllabus ,
preparing examination and everything else .
Hmm , you know , I realised a thing and I don't even know when it started .
I can't remember if I mentioned it in previous posts .
I'VE CHANGED ! If it was for good than I'm not worried .
Obviously , it caused harm a lot .
I felt I was so far away from my love , my Almighty Love .
I don't know what happened , but I'm not doing anything right .
All the read Quran , Dhuha , Qiam seems flew away .
From habits it became rarely and hardly .
It became harder and harder .
I'm scared okay . Scared of getting back to that old-stupid me .
Scared of forgetting about the One who cared about me the most .
No , I don't want to lose this feeling .
Loving HIM . No , not ever .
I will try my best to recover all of these .
There must be something I've done
that was so wrong that turned me into this .
And I still wondering what was that .
I wish the best for this relationship with Him .
I couldn't afford another hole in my heart losing him .
He's so precious compared to any other things he created , of course .
And yet , as a human , I always forgot about his love .
Forgive me my dear Allah . I love you ,
or at least I really wanted to . Ameen . :'|
For this coming 2nd sem , I wish
I won't take anything for granted anymore .
I really hope that I would work hard enough ,
to earn his love and heaven , and everything related to my religion .
Wish the best for me guys . Ameen . :)
