Today , I went to school around 11.45 a.m .
I'm shaking like seriously ^&*%%* , pheww .
And at 12 o'clock the result is announced .
Over all , 62 students got straight A over 177 .
I really wish I were one of them .
But it turns out I didn't . I only got ;
4A+ (PAI , MATH , +MATH , PHYS)
3A (ENG , SEJ , CHEM)
1A- (BM)
1B+ (BIO)
It's so upsetting , of course .
It was the only hope that I had to make my mum proud of me .
And I failed on that mission . Sedih gilaa tengok muka umi . *tsk tsk .
My eyes and nose hurt so badly because of crying .
Kecewa teramat sangat .
But that's it . I have to change . This is the chance for me to grow stronger ,
take every challenges as opportunity to build the strength inside of me .
Menerima qada' & qadar dengan hati terbuka . :')
I believe my Lord know what best for me .
Kalau ini yg terbaik , aku redha .
Sape tahu , kalau aku dapat straight A ,
aku jd riak , malas nak belajar ke apa .
Mungkin kalau aku tak dapat , aku akan usaha lebih .
It's okay Nursyafiqah . Rezeki Allah tu luas .
Who knows , right ? Allah tu sebaik-baik perancang .
Just be grateful . Alhamdulillah . :')
And if this can make me become closer to Allah , I accept it sincerely .
So enough . My mood still aren't okay , of course .
Tears running down so easily and I hate it T.T
But , I got new spirit to continue the fight .
So I had three choice in my mind right now .
Actuarial Science ,
Financial Engineering ,
and Accounting .
Wishing that I can get scholarship to study abroad . Ameen . :')
Sedih lg ouh . Sedih sgt .
Omaigod . Redha redha . >.<
